I’m in a place where I think that everything I write sounds fake, insincere, theatrically sincere, contains its own refutation, doesn’t matter, has been said a million times before better by smarter people, is trite, useless, an example of helpless rage and outrage, not good for my side, do I have a side, self-defeating, self-promoting, incoherent, irrelevant, idiotic, and repellent.
And that’s without an online thesaurus.